Wednesday, August 19, 2009


Okay, sorry, but today is probably going to be all whining. You know I live day to day with what amounts to the stomach flu. You know how you feel when your stomach is crampy and you have to go every 30 minutes to an hour? Well, that is my "normal". On top of that I have constant pain in my hips, feet, knees, shoulder. I can't stand for too long, I can't sit for too long. It is really frustrating. I won't even go into the lack of energy! I take this though. I, most days anyway, put on a happy face, laugh, joke, clean house, grocery shop, cart kids around and make the most of my not so full days. But some days it is too much. I get gripey, I get angry, I get sad, I get mad. I am TIRED of my body. I want to be in my kitchen right now taking the wallpaper off the walls. But what am I doing? I am sitting and squirming in my chair because yesterday I went to the bathroom too often and the hemorrhoids came back. Oh yes! On top of the "illnesses" I have, I also get to deal with the side effects of said illnesses!!!! Oh joy!! Lucky me!!! So I am sitting here wondering if after last night being off my feet if that was enough. Or should I tempt fate and try to get up and at least clean the kitchen because there was no way in hell I was doing that last night. Hell, I don't hardly remember last night I was in so much pain. Yea, my kid's first day in high school and I hardly remember the afternoon and evening because I was in bed or sitting on a sitz bath!!! Yea, me! I am sure I am up for Mommy of the Year!! Crohn's SUCKS! Ankylosing Sponidlytis SUCKS! Being ill SUCKS! I want a do-over!!!! I want it NOW!!!

Okay, enough, I probably went overboard here.....but it felt good. I feel a little lighter. Hopefully most of you read the alert at the top and skipped this post.

If you were brave enough to keep reading, thank you. Thank you for listening and knowing that sometimes a girl just has to vent.

Until next time,
Mrs. M

1 comment:

shizzknits said...

awwwwww....vent away! Having chronic illnesses really's hard to keep an upbeat attitude when it feels like you are sick all the time. You have every right to vent!

Take it easy, take care of yourself and don't do too much (if you can help it). (((hugs)))